在夜里的公交车上，看车窗外的霓虹灯和广告牌飞速向后，这是这个繁华世界里的流光溢彩。繁华在变动，在飞逝，空虚世界的虚假外壳。也许这又是一个电影中的老套镜头，每次却都引起我老套的伤心。还记得在青岛的最后几天，晚上从台东回来坐十一路车时的流光溢彩，双蝶，DUREX 漂亮的霓虹广告……将头靠在玻璃上，沉浸在离别的感伤情绪之中。此时，在路旁的高楼大厦里，有多少DUREX被消费？多少快乐被消费？
最近每次晚上家教坐车回来，都会看到公交站旁的一个流浪汉，大部分时间他在发呆：有时候坐着，靠着已打烊商店的卷帘门；有时候站着，一动不动地面对着路旁的树干。最近天气冷了，他开始蜷缩着躺在路边，天当被，地当床。从他身边经过时，我以为他睡着了，可是他突然慢慢睁开眼睛，和我目光相对，于是我将目光从他身上移开……也许是恐惧，也许是惭愧。朱门酒肉臭，路有冻死骨，转瞬即逝的同情心是不值钱的。老子刚在车上看完了流光溢彩在小资产阶级忧郁，哪顾得上你无产阶级的死活？
昨天从gseeker看到blogger解封了，却不像上一次看到blogger解封那么高兴，似乎已经习惯了这种反复。那次是blogger被我党伟大 的墙（GFW:Great FireWall)封锁两年之后第一次解封，我也趁机从超烂的spaces搬家到blogger,解封的日子持续了几个月，期间blogger恰好升级到 beta，真是双喜临门，当时我有个messenger签名是这样的：“blogger解封了，升级了，一切都完美得让人伤心。”“伤心”从形而上来说是 担心太美好的东西总不能长久，形而下来说就是：谁他妈知道下一次被封是什么时候？！
果然前段时间又被封了，在持币观望一段时间后，发现这次可能是又来真格的了，只好无奈搬家iblog。没想到昨天又解封了，一直到现在都能访问，希望这次 他们真的是与时俱进，解放思想，代表我这个最广大人民群众中一员的根本利益了。不过希望不大，反反复复封来解去已经“如是者三”，这次解封可能只是GFW 抽风，出了点小小的技术故障。在blogger上搭窝如履薄冰，内心忐忑，现在只好狡兔两窟，暂时同时使用iblog和blogger。原来http://spaceworker.blogspot.com会和现在这个http://mrtoad.iblog.com同时更新，不过评论请发表在现在这个iblog上。如果blogger能持续解封半年以上，届时将搬回老窝。
我现在想说的只有一句话：孙子，你耍我玩儿呐？
有时候觉得动物才是王小波说的"沉默的大多数"：因为对于鸟的生活,对于蚂蚁的生活,我是不了解的,他们给我展示的只是生活的片断,对于这些片断之外的生活我一点也不了解,我也想象不出。对于人的生活我了解一些，我可以设想一个陌生人离开我的视线之后怎样吃饭怎样躺下睡觉怎样死去，可我想象不出一只鸟会怎样死去，鸟也会死吗？死在天上还是地上？鸟老了也会像人一样在窝里无精打采地熬日子么？我总觉得即使鸟会老，会死，他们也都是老在天空上死在飞行中。当那些迁徙的鸟飞行在广阔无边的大海上时，我突然想知道它们如果飞累了会到哪里歇息。《阿飞正传》里的无脚鸟因为没有脚所以要不停地飞到死，而这些海上的鸟是则仅仅是因为没有陆地——电影里说有种鸟在南极上空飞好几年才落下来一次。
《迁徙的鸟》这部记录电影有一个更浪漫一些的港台译名：《梦与鸟飞行》。 我羡慕那些鸟，因为我想飞。我就想像鸟一样飞，像飞机一样也行。我做过很多次关于飞行的梦，大多数的时候我记得都是乘着某种飞行器，有飞机也有一些稀奇古怪的东西，脚踏车之类。而不借助飞行器飞的梦我好像只作过一次，在梦里我用一种特殊的姿势或方法飞起来了，我助跑，慢慢我就飘起来了，慢慢我就可以躺着飞了，就像在水中仰泳。我确信自己已经掌握了飞行的姿势，我知道怎么飞了，我多么高兴。我记下了那个方法，我在梦里告诉自己醒来就这样飞。可醒来的时候我已经把这个方法忘了，能记住的只是梦中那种掌握了方法的确信和兴奋。和这个梦十分类似的是有一次梦到自己单手抓起了蓝球，不是手指变长了而是采用了一种特殊的抓法，在梦里就等着醒来后使用这个方法了，可醒来后这个方法也忘了，结果到现在还不能单手抓球。
鸟也会悲痛，鸟的悲痛就和人一样。一模一样。那对企鹅夫妻，眼睁睁地看着它们的孩子在自己面前被另一只鸟吃掉，它们所能做的唯一的反抗，只是对着那只鸟大声喊叫，妄图仅仅靠喊叫把它赶跑，可是凶手豪不在意，不慌不忙地把小企鹅杀掉了，什么叫无助，无奈？当他们发现最终自己的反抗毫无意义时，我看到了一个最令我震撼的镜头：他们竟然仰天长叹，然后默默的低下头（这决不是拟人句）。我相信动物也有灵魂，也会高兴，也有悲伤，只是他们不象人那么善于表达而已。
当那些鸟飞越人类巨大而肮脏的工业区并在其中歇脚时，我突然感觉那些巨大的工业设施是那么奇怪，突然感觉人类顽皮得可爱又可恶：齿轮，红色黄色一闪一闪的灯，长长的钢铁手臂……简直就像一个孩子的恶作剧。这是人类对自然，对鸟儿的恶作剧。在电影里，就是这个恶作剧使一只鸟深深陷入了工业区黑色的污泥之中 。
电影最后的歌曲To Be by Your Side里是Nick Cave沧桑而感伤的声音，歌词里有句类似于《芳芳》女主角最后说的话：tonight i will be by your side but tommorow i will fly。像《芳芳》里那样，恋爱中的人们只能通过不停地迁徙来维持爱情的新鲜，而迁徙的鸟则只是到了季节就迁徙，飞越半个地球，飞走又飞回，从林木茂盛飞到冰天雪地，中间很多无法完成旅程的就死在路上，迁徙就是它们的生命，它们所有的生活，这种本能强大到掩盖住了目的，为什么要迁徙？真就像电影说的"为了一个承诺，一个关于回归的承诺"？我想人所以不能像鸟一样飞翔，除了他没有翅膀体格不够强壮之外，还因为他把时间浪费在了飞翔前的思考中，他为自己的行为去寻找一个目的，为这个目的思前想后，这个耽误了他的迁徙，使他大部分时间呆在原地。当电影开始时的那群野鸭在飞到北极又飞回来时，它们走时的地方并没有变化，它们自己好像也没有变化，又静静地漂浮在同一条河流上，可谁能知道这些小小的鸭子曾经飞过半个地球，飞越高山，飞越沙漠，飞越海洋，飞到北极又飞回来？
就好像什么也没发生。
（老文，最近又因为投稿需要拿出来炒了一下，写的象样的东西太少了，惭愧。）
昨天晚上在messenger上遇到了高三时网上认识的一个笔友，五年多没有联系了，有些激动。她家在不丹的首都廷布，算是一个被世界遗忘的角落吧。据说不丹特别重视环境保护，尽管森林覆盖率特别高，可还是严格控制木材的砍伐，而且从某报上看过一篇报道，说不丹政府不以经济发达为追求目标，而是致力于提高人民的“幸福指数”，也就是说，人家并不认为物质决定意识，经济基础决定上层建筑，整天把GDP挂在嘴边。希望以后能有机会能去不丹玩，顺便爬爬附近的珠穆朗玛峰。
和她认识时刚接触网络不久，那时候觉得能在网上和那么遥远的地方的人聊天，真的是一件奇妙的事情。后来出乎意料的收到了她从不丹寄来的信（不是email)，记得当同学告诉我有一封我的来自国外的信时，我是那么的惊讶和高兴。不丹的信封和邮票都做得很有特色，非常漂亮，至今我还保留着那些信。由于是用英文交流，信的内容都停留在很浅的层面，类似英语作文——其实和她就是在一个英语学习网站上认识的。相互写了来两三封信之后，再没有联系。
她现在在美国上本科最后一年，学的是graphic design.而我告诉她我学的是chinese ancient literature——a weird major.
不丹国旗（怎么像咱大清国旗）：
"The Land of The (Peaceful) Thunder Dragon"
"Peaceful was added later, but we like it anyway."
Our Land locked Mountain Kingdom is bordered by Tibet, China, India, near Nepal and Bangladesh. Never Heard of Bhutan? The spelling has changed a few times. The original spelling from Marco Polo times was "Bootan" in the Roman Alphabet, but we call our country "Druk Yul." Most Asians haven't even heard about Bhutan - we've been pretty quiet up here in the Himalayas. We were not involved with the Industrial Age, the World Wars, nor the Arms Race, and until recently not even cyberspace. In fact many of us didn't know you existed until we got your e-mail. We live on our own "Roof of the World" and have kept to our selves for hundreds of years.
Now it is permissible to visit Bhutan. Find out about Bhutan and visit soon.
Geography:Bhutan is a land of soaring snowcapped peaks, alpine meadows and densely forested hills and ravines abounding in exotic flora and fauna. From May to August, hills are covered with an awesome variety of flowers decorated with waterfalls and streams gushing in wild abandon.
History:
Bhutan's early history is steeped in Buddhist tradition and mythology. Bhutan's medieval and modern history was a time of warlords, feuds, giant fortresses and castles. The visit of Padama Sambhava in 747 AD is the important landmark in the history of the country. The kingdom's recent history begins with a hereditary monarchy that was founded in the 20th century and continued the country's policy of isolationism. It was under the leadership of the third king that Bhutan emerged from its medieval past of serfdom and reclusion.
Despite the speed of modernization, Bhutan has maintained a policy of careful, controlled policy of development in order to preserve its national identity.
Though known as Bhutan to the outside world, to the Bhutanese, the country is known as Druk Yul, 'land of the thunder dragon'. The people are known as the Drukpas.
Religion/Culture:
The State religion is Drukpa Kagyupa a branch of Mahayana Buddhism. It has been institutionalised in the Dratshang (Central Monk body), headed by the Je Khenpo (Chief Abbot) who is chosen from among the most learned lamas and enjoys an equal rank with the King. Bhutan is the only country in the world to have adopted Mahayana Buddhism in its Tantric form as its official religion.
The Buddhist faith has played and continues to play a fundamental role in the cultural, ethical and sociological development of Bhutan and its people. It permeates all strands of secular life.
People:
Bhutanese are a mongolid race of people who originally migrated into and settled the country in the 7th Century AD. A nomadic and pastoral society at first, they gradually turned to agriculture in the fertile valleys.
There are three main ethnic groups - the Ngalongs in the western and central regions are the descendants of Tibetan immigrants who arrived in Bhutan from the 9th century. The Sharchops who live in the east of the country, are recognized as the original inhabitants of Bhutan. The third group is known as Lhotshampas. They represent the Nepali speaking ethnic group. The total population of Bhutan is about 600,000.
Sakten Valley, world of the Brokpas
Festivals:
There are many religious festivals. The best known festivals are the Tsechus which are held at different times of the year in different locations. Tsechus are celebrated for three to five days with both monks and laymen taking part in the ritual mask dances.
Tsechu Schedules
Dzongs:
These massive fortress-monasteries decorate most hill-tops and valleys. They serve as the administrative headquarters and are the focus of secular and religious authority in each districts.
Architecture of Bhutan
The Rural Bhutan:
The first thing that a visitor to Bhutan will notice is the great expanse of green, forested hillsides. A drive or trek through the country-side of Bhutan will take you from the subtropical forests over high alpine passes and down to broad valleys with colorfully painted houses scattered across the landscape.
Trekking:
For the trekking enthusiasts, there are numerous routes ranging from low ( 9840 ft) to medium (10,000 ft) to very high altitude (14,400 ft) treks. Rainbow Tours and Treks and Sakten Tours and Treks can organize dozens of different programs including Eco-Trekking, an Orchid Trek, Medicinal Plant Treks, Bird-Watching Treks and a Yeti trek. Trek and Tour Itineraries
Flora and Fauna:
Bhutan is a botanical paradise. One of the ancient names given to Bhutan was 'Southern Valleys of Medicinal Herbs'. To name a few floras in Bhutan- rhododendrons, junipers and magnolias several meters high, carnivorous plants, rare orchids, blue poppy (national flower), edelweiss, gentian, medicinal plants, daphne, giant rhubarb, high-altitude plants, tropical tress, pine and oak etc.
Among the rare and exotic faunas found in Bhutan are - Golden Langur, Red Pandas, Black-necked Crane, Snow Leopard, Takin, Musk Deer, Himalayan Brown Bear, Himalayan Marten, Tiger, hornbills, pheasants, mountain goats and timid blue sheep.
Flowers of Bhutan
Bird Watching in Bhutan
The Thrung Thrung Karm
